我对不起我自己，我不该爱上一个不该爱的人

谢谢你，谢谢你可以让我，陪你这么久。

谢谢你，谢谢你可以给我，很多安慰。

谢谢你，谢谢你可以伤我，那么深。

谢谢你，谢谢你让我明白，我还是适合一个人。

离开你，我下了很大的决心。

不是因为不爱你，也不是因为自己真的放下了。

只是，想你过的比我好。

明白爱一个人，

如果得不到他的爱，

所以即便自己再爱，

也不会希望你受到一丝的伤害。

离开你，我不敢告诉任何一个人，

只想一个人静静的睡一觉。

然后若无其事的过接下来的生活。

我以为，自己一个人能过的了，

没想到自己已经脆弱得不堪一击。

我

一个人听歌

一个人逛街

一个人吃饭

一个人喝水

一个人哭。

一个人做着，以前想都不敢想的事。

只是因为，我现在可以不用顾虑到任何人了，因为我是一个人。

可是

我真的很痛

我只是想让自己忘记那些难以忘怀的。

你的关心太重，重的我连碰都不敢碰。

你的安慰太痛，痛的我真的不想要。

我对不起我自己，我不该爱上一个不该爱的人。

Company Annual Dinner 2011 :)

I think I will share more photos than words.

I had be a photography girl that night

with a camera Canon D40

it's damn heavy - -

eh~

don't wan bla so many

just see and enjoy :)

our theme for this year :)

To The Top Together :D

Gaming time :D

Time to eat ! :D

William's show ! :D

xiao ping :D

Enco & forgot his name xD

sorry ><

Finally,

our group photo ! :D

TT art photo's family members :D

well, what I want to say again

I'm very happy that I joined tt art photo.

it's made me feel like a big family :)

I love you guys ! :D

give me a lots of memories :D

thank you :D

I WILL NEVER FORGET THE TIME WE SPENT TOGETHER :D

针扎

内心的针扎

一言难尽

真不知道该怎么做

我的任何一个选择

都会伤害我自己

如果说

我们没有相遇

没有认识

今天

也不会有这样的事情

我针扎了好久

有点累了

当我决定该怎么做时

又有些事情让我动摇

每当我以为这一切都结束时

你又回来了

我们的相遇是那么的偶然

那么的巧妙

原谅我昨晚

想要放纵自己

喝醉的冲动

只因为

我心里有好多事情

都无法释放出来

我誓言

我不做第三者

我不介入别人的感情

我誓言

我一直

在我的真心

围上了保护墙

我不想再伤害自己

不想让自己再次受伤

我一个人

可以过的很好

可能

你只是

我生命中的

过客

IHL Camp :D

hey ~ =)

as what I promised ,

I will update a post about a camp I went when I was holiday :D

IHL.

International Humanitarian Law

It organized by Curtin VAD 57

vanue: HQ

date : 26-28 August 2011

well done ! :D

at first, when we heard it was a whole day talk

all no mood want go = =

walao eh~

at last, me and Hui Ling go :D

haha.

in this camp,

I learnt a lot.

about law,

the international law.

COOL :D

HAHA. xD

we having a lots of talk= =

and group discussion.

LOL.

early morning having a talk= torturing

HAHAHA !

early morning having a talk = fishing xD

LOL

anyway,

I met a lots of friends.

REMEMBER,

DON'T SHOOT !

WE ARE NOT COMBATANTS xD

Kik man ! :D

Nagaria's girl.

she got a very good thinking :D

my program book's

autograph :D

share a nice song :) 我懂了她

hey, sorry for long time I din update.

busy lah :D

after this I will update about a camp I went =)

waiting !!!!

share this song to you guys,

我懂了她 =)

我好想她

现在好吗

旧画面还在记忆里挣扎

那年的夏结束时说的话

一直不能放下

她说爱啊

爱很伟大

所以才能让她勇敢离开

当时的我

不明白为什么

直到时间白了头发

我懂了她

她不让眼泪落下

所以让爱结束在最美刹那

她的眼里进了沙

她算了吧够了吧

不要再苦苦挣扎

我懂了她

不要我为她牵挂

她说天空很大要自由飞翔

没有结果的爱情

她放了吧走了吧

不想要彼此受伤

她那么傻

真相

一句對不起，讓我們的愛敗給了時間，敗給了距離。

或許時間和距離都是借口吧，不愛了才是眞正的理由。

可是你爲什麽不和我說實話，爲什麽還要給我那麼多好聽的理由？

其實，只要你一句不愛了，我就會放手，我會給你自由，讓你去追你的幸福。

只是，不要騙我，我要的不是你假裝還愛我。

the night we gathering after work =] ! ♥

the night we gathering after work ! =] ♥

hua hua hua ! x]

very happy.

we are from TT Art Photo !

x]

you know guys,

I'm happy,

Nice workmates x]

that I never have !

=D

You guys let me felt that,

it just like a

BIG FAMILY's LIFE !

WOOOTTT!!!! x]

Thank you =]

Again,

I'm happy that I have a lots of nice workmates !

x]

Hey !

Keep in touch ya ! x] ♥

=D

I'm happy to be with you guys ! ♥

不屬於自己的就忘掉吧，不要留戀

有時候哭泣不是因為難過。有一些東西錯過了，就一輩子錯過了。人是會變的，守住一個不變的承諾，卻守不住一顆善變的心。

　　有時候執著是一種負擔，放棄是一種解脫，人沒有完美，幸福沒有一百分，知道自己沒有能力一次擁有那麼多，也沒有權力要求那麼多，否則苦了自己，也為難了對方。

　　一顆心屬於一個人，愛情裡什麼是公平？愛的深，傷的深，愛情裡沒有不公平。愛上不該愛的人，是永無天日的嘆息，愛了不愛你的人，是眼淚決堤的開始。

　　承諾是一張白紙，再厚的劇本也有了結局，我想我知道眼淚的味道，就算付出每一分，每一秒我都不曾想逃。在這個世界上沒有恆久的幸福，只有瞬間的愜意和安適。

　　也許無言才是最好的安慰，也許回憶是最好的結局，傻瓜也都一樣，都逃不過悲傷，因為有夢在心上，所以甘心流浪。有些緣分注定要失去，有些緣分注定不會有好結果的，愛一個人不一定要擁有他，但擁有一個人，一定要去好好愛他，不要輕言放棄，否則對不起自己。

　　不要因為沒有陽光，而不走進春天。不要因為沒有歌聲，而放棄自己的追求，不要因為沒有掌聲，而丟掉自己的理想，其實每一條都通往陽光的大道，都充滿坎坷。每一條通向理想的途徑，都充滿了艱辛與汗水！

　　很多事情的發展注定有個結束，好好享受美麗的過程，擦身而過的時候，我們應該學會遺忘，放聲的笑一回，大膽的哭一場，抬頭望一望，一片燦爛的陽光，相信時間可以改變一切！不要輕易讓自己掉眼淚。

　　春有春的風情，夏有夏的烈艷，秋有秋的素潔，冬有冬的雅致，人生各有各的美麗，各有各的瀟灑，你笑，全世界跟著你笑。你哭，全世界只有你一個人哭。當不能擁有時，唯一能做的就是令自己要忘記。

My Job ! =D

my job, yes! my job ! x)

what is my job?

promoter =)

which promoter?

Celcom promoter =)

when I joined?

06.11.2010 =)

I still can remember it.

this was when I fill up the register form =)

BUSY ! xD

actually, I learn many things from there.

customer, what pattern also got -,-

even SOT, (really got mental problems)

-,-||| "hiao",

many macam, bunga bunga ,

very many lo.

maybe at first,

I don't know how to ,

erm...

解决.

but now, I know liao =)

I'm a stuff for 2 moths at A.R.M,

one of a big Celcom dealer at Miri.

hmmm...

the manager very bad.

sometimes our salary also not confirm time.

-,-|||

very bad eh,

sometimes our salary been cutted itself

without any permission -,-

**** ( rude words)

hahahaha xD

me resign at 31 December 2010.

I thought I won't 接触 any Celcom's work

but, when I meet my workmate,

from others dealer.

then I ask for vacancy.

they direct ON!

kik -,-

actually we are a big family =)

and I love this kind of life =)

this took when last December,

Miri 4 Celcom dealers all roadshow together =D

nice !

from there, I knew many friends.

Although now, less of them still work. =(

I miss the time.

we laugh, smile, fight sells.

it's nice memories for me. =)

til 3 of febuary,

I joined another dealer.

TT ART PHOTO.

=)

I love now.

we share our foods, drinks,

and any funny things ^^

they wont "rebut" sells

they even help you find sells. =)

the teamwork,

very strong.

and the manager.

very nice also =)

we play together, laugh, crazy.

hahaha.

the cop we play.=)

*FOR CELCOM USE ONLY*

(the cop)

I'm happy that I joined Celcom family =)

it's let me learn so much.

Although sometimes felt unhappy between another promoter.

but, I still love to stay here =)

还记得，

有人曾经问我，

为什么还要在Celcom 做工？

我笑笑的回到：

因为，我不舍得，

它给我，就像是一个大家庭 =)

YA ! it's a Big Family. =)

I love my job,

although it's very tired,

always legs pain

but, I still love it ! =)

失眠了耶 ><"

唉 =(

失眠了我啊！

多久没这样了啊？

虽然很累了，可是hoo...

躺下去床上，

就是没有那个睡意 ><

我要疯了啦 ><

2 个晚上了

=(

怎么了啊？

这2个晚上，没凌晨1点不睡觉的 ><

早上起来超累的！

就在班上睡觉了

睡一下子也甘愿 -,-

真是的 -,-

真拿我自己没办法 -,-

一方面，因为自己不够睡的原因

脾气坏到爆！

-,-

怎么这样啊？

不是普通的爆耶！

是很恶劣的爆！

-,-

我也不知道怎么办

有时真想吃2颗安眠药

好让自己可以睡个好觉

可是家里没有耶 -,-

唉 -,-

今晚再这么迟睡，

我快变熊猫了 -,-

很可爱hoo?

可是那眼圈出现在我的脸上就不可爱了啦！

><"

我啊，

就算早上不去上学，

晚上凌晨1点才睡，

早上就定定9点醒 TT

严重不够睡！

救命啊！！

TT

很累哦 =(

sick :(

aaaawwwwww =(

I'm SiCk.. =(

sad case.

flu and coughing. =(

so tired.

this week, go where also bring a small tower.

=(

when Im going to recover?

为何我还在爱着你

一片叶飘落了

又开始一个秋季

一片雪融化了

又开始一个春季

一个人爱过了

始终都要学会放弃

一颗心伤透了

什么都要记得忘记

你已经走了

我还留在原地

反复哼着你最爱的歌曲

幻想还有一天我能再拥有你

一切都会过去

一切都会忘记

为何想念依然在继续

爱情已经过去

故事已经结局

为何我还继续爱着你

the day I smile =)

time for blogging x)

share something new x)

I joined drawing class near Riam this month

I followed my friend, Lisa.

She introduced me go there.

why I suddenly go for drawing class?

hmmmm.... x)

remember the post that bout my further study?

cause I wanna continue my study when finish SPM x)

MIA, maybe.

if really be,

I will going there for 3 years diploma =)

share the drawing that I drew last night x)

WOOOOTTT ! How's it?

teacher got help some lah...

hahaha...

this was the first time I colour and draw it so nice !

WWWOOOOOOOOOOTTT!!!

first time got that 成就感...

LOL.... hahaha...

when I went back home,

I showed it to my mother,

she said,

NICE !

=D!!!

WAHAHAHAHA....

happy dao.... x)

hey ! today English lesson ,

teacher let us cook.

hoho... my friends and I prepare for sushi

WWOOOOTT !!! xD

I never do a sushi = =

HAHAHA...but I do it today ! =D

see see !! our "result" x)

you wan? haha...

another thing made me smile =)

my daddy bought a new shoes for me !

hahaha...

my sport shoes = =

cause the camp gerko,

got a bit not good for wear liao... T_T

then today went for a look.

the boss introduced me this !

=D

how's it look?

nice?

hhmm..

that boss said, this was made from KL,

with a HIGH QUALITY.

LOL...

haha..

he had discounted for me. x)

thank you =)

I will wear it on tomorrow. x)

HOOOOO !!!!!!!!!

new pic come again ! =D

how's it look ?

me look like so SLIM !

HAHAHAHA....

hhmm....

that's all from me...

=D

update soon for my friend's birthday !